I'm not a salesperson. I've never claimed to be a salesperson. I wasn't hired for this position to be a salesperson. I don't really like salespeople. Now I'm a salesperson and I can't get out. No matter how I try.

Our boss has asked us to sell, sell, sell (and more sell). He's asked us to put magnets on our cars (doing it!), he's asked us to go around town passing out business cards and pen (doing it!), he's asked us to hit up our family and friends for their insurance needs (did it!) and now he's asking us for nearly 100 policies in an office that has struggled the past couple of months to write 40. I don't know what else to do. I'm not a cold-call type of person, I'm not going to bug you until your insurance is with me or you no longer want to talk to me.

I've decided to move on. I've finally made the decision that I'm not going to worry about my co-workers or the owner but try to think of what's better for me and my family. For five years I've sat behind the desk here doing a job I never really enjoyed. Three years ago I was offered a position working for a travel company in their marketing department, doing things I enjoy - like writing. My ex-boss basically told me I couldn't quit, that she needed me. She added a couple of perks that I no longer get now that she's retired, and I decided to stay on. Yes, I regret that decision.

In the meantime I've been applying everywhere! Okay, maybe not everywhere but I'd say it's close to 15-20 places. I'm not that desperate where I'm going to find a job that pays a lot less but I would take a pay cut if it meant I could move up in the company and also received benefits for me and my family.

I'd love a job where I spend my day writing. I wrote an interesting dialogue of last week's interviews that the boss conducted 5-feet from my desk. I'd post them but I'm afraid my co-workers might stumble upon them and then I have angered co-workers. Anyway, it was a lot of fun writing it and I wish I could spend more time doing something I love.

I'll continue to truck on, trying to sell insurance along with trying to find something new for me to do. It's a confusing time right now. We were told by the boss that he might have to close the office within four to six months. He later rescinded saying that he was trying to create a sense of urgency. What am I supposed to think? If I sell but my co-workers don't then I've spent four months hoping that I'll still have a job and now I'm out of a job with a newborn here.

Plus all the gas prices increasing and everything else increasing it seems like I'm going to need another job or two to make ends meet. I'm sure you all know about that.

I'll stop whining from now. I needed a sounding board. Thanks.